Too Much Time On My Hands Today.

Too much time for thinking of my past life. My many many years of being in a rotten marriage. And mainly because I go through so many memories from the holidays, but today also because my ex-husband's latest father in law died this past week. I watched my two young adult children talking about this at our Thanksgiving get together with my family. They didn't speak for very long about it, but of course, it has me over thinking as I have a tendency to do. Especially when I have time to sit idle for a day or two. It is still so hard for me to think of my kids as being intertwined with an entire other family. True, they don't spend an over-abundance of time with their step sibs. and Mom, but I don't think I will ever be able to accept how sometimes there are practically strangers that seem to need them. There was a memorial service for the man today that I guess is their step=grandpa and I was internally happy that my son couldn't attend. Just how I feel. Hash tag: feeling a little melancholy and unsure of where to file this type of thing in my big, over thinking brain! Thanks for checking in, hopefully I will snap out of it soon!