You Pretend it Doesn't Matter

It was another long, morning in court. I need to take this opportunity to thank my family for their undying support. And my friends. And especially my tough, Mom who accompanies me to these planned events and remains so strong for me. Our court date was more of the same from the past. More uncertainty, and on my part, more feeling guilty and hopeless where this reappearing stranger in my head is concerned. My ex-husband is apparently enduring a lot physical pain and is trying to prove that he can never work again. Never a job...of any kind...ever. And while he is known to be a flat out liar, I can't help but feel pity and disdain for this person. Don't trust him as far as I could throw him. Or scare him into a trot or a run. Today, he happened to show up with one of his kid brothers. At one point in my life, this brother in law had really become a true brother in my eyes. We had been so close. He had always told me that he would remain impartial and never take a "side." Anyways, the bottom line is that we will meet again (me and ex) in court to find out the progress on his social security case. That's it. Nothing more. A date to see once again if he is following up with his directions to tell the court where he is at with his obligations. The next court date is in May. A tough morning, but we are happy to be getting past it and living life in the present.